[...ah. Shuichi is silent for a moment, contemplating his answer. The question is simple enough, but the answer is...complicated.]
...I'll never forget everything we went through together and I don't want to. There are specific moments, both happy and painful, that I think back on sometimes. And I miss all our friends and want to see them again. [But that's probably not so surprising, given that Kaito's jacket is still hanging from the back of his door.] But...I don't really think about the killing game itself, no.
[He twirls the ends of Kaede's hair idly around his fingers.]
I guess I've sort of separated and compartmentalized things. That last trial was just...such bullshit; the whole game itself was such meaningless bullshit that I don't want to think about it anymore. And even if I wish things could have ended differently-- that we all could have made it out alive together-- I'm satisfied with the ending we chose. Satisfied enough that I feel like I can put the killing game behind me and move on.
[Plus, it helps that the only real regret he was left with was that he hadn't realized Kaede's plan sooner. But since Kaede is here with him, and alive...there's no reason to dwell on it.]
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...I'll never forget everything we went through together and I don't want to. There are specific moments, both happy and painful, that I think back on sometimes. And I miss all our friends and want to see them again. [But that's probably not so surprising, given that Kaito's jacket is still hanging from the back of his door.] But...I don't really think about the killing game itself, no.
[He twirls the ends of Kaede's hair idly around his fingers.]
I guess I've sort of separated and compartmentalized things. That last trial was just...such bullshit; the whole game itself was such meaningless bullshit that I don't want to think about it anymore. And even if I wish things could have ended differently-- that we all could have made it out alive together-- I'm satisfied with the ending we chose. Satisfied enough that I feel like I can put the killing game behind me and move on.
[Plus, it helps that the only real regret he was left with was that he hadn't realized Kaede's plan sooner. But since Kaede is here with him, and alive...there's no reason to dwell on it.]