[Hey, he'll ignore any tiny splashes from you if you ignore any tiny splashes from him on your chest or shoulder. It's a combination of things that are causing him to cry...but it's mostly how overwhelming Shuichi's statement combined with what he's feeling through their bond is...he's never really questioned whether or not the demon loves him. Every time he had possessed him as a shade he could feel it. Those words that, for one reason or another, the detective could never bring himself to say. And he never wanted to push him to say them, either. He would, in his own time... At the same time though, deep down...he couldn't help but wonder why Shuichi couldn't say them.
How the feelings they shared during those moments could be so strong, but he could never return the sentiment vocally when he'd told him he loved him. Was he questioning it? Second guessing himself? Did he still distrust Kokichi? Question how honest his confessions of love were? Was there a part of him that didn't want to be with him, like he was so afraid of? A part of him that didn't like Kokichi, couldn't help but wish he'd change...that he'd stop lying, stop causing trouble, stop being himself...was that why he couldn't say it?
But...hearing Shuichi call it "loving" him...saying there's plenty about him that's likeable, and even "loveable"...
He hadn't realized...just how important hearing that word from Shuichi was to him until now.]
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How the feelings they shared during those moments could be so strong, but he could never return the sentiment vocally when he'd told him he loved him. Was he questioning it? Second guessing himself? Did he still distrust Kokichi? Question how honest his confessions of love were? Was there a part of him that didn't want to be with him, like he was so afraid of? A part of him that didn't like Kokichi, couldn't help but wish he'd change...that he'd stop lying, stop causing trouble, stop being himself...was that why he couldn't say it?
But...hearing Shuichi call it "loving" him...saying there's plenty about him that's likeable, and even "loveable"...
He hadn't realized...just how important hearing that word from Shuichi was to him until now.]
S-Saihara-chan...