[Yes, that was definitely a mistake. A good one, Kokichi delighting at being curled around and feeling that head against his own, that nuzzle against his hair, but a mistake none the less. It's only a momentary high, his feelings quickly crashing back down afterward. He's mastered silent crying by now and he's never been more grateful for the tactic. Sure, Shuichi waking up and comforting him and maybe even being enough of a gentleman to wipe his tears away would be nice, but he'd prefer the other boy not see him like this at all. This is killing him, and it's best that nobody sees that in the end.
But it is, at least, still nice to fall asleep in his arms, pretending that this is Shuichi loving the feeling of him tucked so close against him. Technically that's not a lie, right? Just because the detective doesn't know that he isn't his girlfriend...that doesn't change the fact that clearly the other boy is content like this...
He'll convince himself to be content too. Even if that is definitely a lie.
Sorry that you have to wake up with this gremlin in your arms, Shuichi...but he'll be sound asleep by the time the detective starts stirring, whenever that is.]
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But it is, at least, still nice to fall asleep in his arms, pretending that this is Shuichi loving the feeling of him tucked so close against him. Technically that's not a lie, right? Just because the detective doesn't know that he isn't his girlfriend...that doesn't change the fact that clearly the other boy is content like this...
He'll convince himself to be content too. Even if that is definitely a lie.
Sorry that you have to wake up with this gremlin in your arms, Shuichi...but he'll be sound asleep by the time the detective starts stirring, whenever that is.]