[Oh, now is fine huh? Well...alright. Hesitating, he shakes his head.]
Not just yet. It'd be better to stay standing for this. If you still want to talk afterward then we will.
[He stands up a little straighter, facing the detective, and takes a deep breath...and then bows, just as deeply and apologetically as he can, keeping his eyes on the floor. Okay, just say it how you've been practicing this whole time, Kokichi.]
About the killing game...I want to apologize. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for how I acted and what I did during that. I know that a lot of the things I said were unacceptable, and...killing Iruma-chan, Gonta and Momota-chan is unforgivable. I'm sorry that...my trial had ended up just causing trouble and grief, rather than anything else. I know I wasn't aware of Shirogane and whatever team she'd been apart of at the time, but still. I'm sorry.
I won't apologize for lying and I won't apologize completely for being uncooperative, because I won't apologize for who I am. But I know and understand that there are lies and trouble that I caused that I do need to apologize for. There's so much that I am sorry for, Saihara-chan, that I don't know where to start, and I don't know if you want to hear me list them all. I promise though, I know that those things are there. And if you want, I will apologize for every last one of them. I just don't want to waste your time, especially since I'm sure you don't want me around. Which I understand, too, so please stop being civil on my behalf.
[There's no need to pussy foot around it. No need for Shuichi to be civil to him just because Kaede is there, no need to tolerate him...surely he's growing tired of that, no matter how nice he is. So he may as well let him know that...it's okay to not like him or not want him around. He knows and understands.
Another deep breath, one that shudders a little as it's let out.]
I'm not asking for forgiveness, because I know I don't have the right to be forgiven and I don't deserve it. I won't ask for forgiveness, from you or anyone else. [Meaning he plans on apologizing to them too? If they ever show up...] I just...I just wanted you to know.
[He's not the best at apologies, but he's trying. He's...pretty sure he did that right? He falls completely silent after that, waiting for Shuichi's reply. He doesn't stand up straight again, holding his position, though his hands have started to tremble just a little.
He's sure Shuichi is going to tell him that nothing is okay, and that he should leave the two of them alone...he wouldn't blame him if he did. Or maybe he won't even believe him at all. Wouldn't that be painfully ironic...but he's willing to do whatever it takes to prove his sincerity, so if that ends up being the case then...he'll get down on the floor. He'll get a hot plate and kneel on that. He'll slit his stomach open, if he has to...]
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Not just yet. It'd be better to stay standing for this. If you still want to talk afterward then we will.
[He stands up a little straighter, facing the detective, and takes a deep breath...and then bows, just as deeply and apologetically as he can, keeping his eyes on the floor. Okay, just say it how you've been practicing this whole time, Kokichi.]
About the killing game...I want to apologize. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for how I acted and what I did during that. I know that a lot of the things I said were unacceptable, and...killing Iruma-chan, Gonta and Momota-chan is unforgivable. I'm sorry that...my trial had ended up just causing trouble and grief, rather than anything else. I know I wasn't aware of Shirogane and whatever team she'd been apart of at the time, but still. I'm sorry.
I won't apologize for lying and I won't apologize completely for being uncooperative, because I won't apologize for who I am. But I know and understand that there are lies and trouble that I caused that I do need to apologize for. There's so much that I am sorry for, Saihara-chan, that I don't know where to start, and I don't know if you want to hear me list them all. I promise though, I know that those things are there. And if you want, I will apologize for every last one of them. I just don't want to waste your time, especially since I'm sure you don't want me around. Which I understand, too, so please stop being civil on my behalf.
[There's no need to pussy foot around it. No need for Shuichi to be civil to him just because Kaede is there, no need to tolerate him...surely he's growing tired of that, no matter how nice he is. So he may as well let him know that...it's okay to not like him or not want him around. He knows and understands.
Another deep breath, one that shudders a little as it's let out.]
I'm not asking for forgiveness, because I know I don't have the right to be forgiven and I don't deserve it. I won't ask for forgiveness, from you or anyone else. [Meaning he plans on apologizing to them too? If they ever show up...] I just...I just wanted you to know.
[He's not the best at apologies, but he's trying. He's...pretty sure he did that right? He falls completely silent after that, waiting for Shuichi's reply. He doesn't stand up straight again, holding his position, though his hands have started to tremble just a little.
He's sure Shuichi is going to tell him that nothing is okay, and that he should leave the two of them alone...he wouldn't blame him if he did. Or maybe he won't even believe him at all. Wouldn't that be painfully ironic...but he's willing to do whatever it takes to prove his sincerity, so if that ends up being the case then...he'll get down on the floor. He'll get a hot plate and kneel on that. He'll slit his stomach open, if he has to...]