diffidentive: But the first one has to be where you got the flamethrower. (ponder ✯ I’ve got a lot of questions.)
Shuichi "Beta-est of Betas" Saihara ✯ 最原 終一 ([personal profile] diffidentive) wrote2017-11-13 11:58 am
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[personal profile] gotyourbach 2018-02-27 01:43 am (UTC)(link)
[She's TRYING to make friends for you, Shuichi!!]

Oh...

[Also great, now she kind of feels like garbage for the second time today?? Because here she is thinking about doing things with other friends, and Shuichi just... isn't. Kokichi's right, she really does take him for granted.]

W-well... I was talking to Rei-san, a little, and she said she'd be fine doing some squares with me if I ever wanted to. And I was thinking it might be kind of fun, so...

[She pushes herself up on one elbow to try to catch Shuichi's eye.]

Only if that's something you're really okay with, though. The way I feel about you is... a lot different from the way I feel about any of my friends. So your feelings are the most important to me!
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[personal profile] gotyourbach 2018-02-27 12:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[Oh... he met her eyes on all his own. It doesn't matter how many times it happens, it still gives her little butterflies in her stomach that he's able to do that.

And don't worry, Shuichi. No other boys yet. All her guy friends are gay??]


Thank you! [She sounds more relieved than anything, leaning in to gently press a kiss to his lips.] And... you're right. I know my feelings won't change at all. You're the only one I want to spend the rest of my life with so...

[Wow, that got embarrassing really quick. She nuzzles her nose against his shoulder again with a muffled noise before glancing up. Time to embarrass him in exchange!]

So... do you want to watch? Boys like that kind of thing, don't they?

[She's grinning, clearly teasing him to try to get over her own embarrassment.]
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[personal profile] gotyourbach 2018-02-27 10:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[She giggles at him, her own cheeks flushed pink at the admission that he absolutely has definitely forgotten about in the wake of her question. It's embarrassing, to be sure, but, well... they both have the voyeurism square, don't they? And why shouldn't they knock out one of his squares while she's doing her own!!

Not that she really wants Shuichi to see that until she knows what she's doing with another girl, she thinks.]


Okay... well let me know if you change your mind. It'll be a standing offer!
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[personal profile] gotyourbach 2018-02-27 10:52 pm (UTC)(link)
[Another giggle, and she shifts on the bed to rest her cheek against his chest again. Comfy... it almost seems like she might be done talking for now, and might let him return to his book, but really, she's just trying to work up the courage. Listening to his heartbeat kind of helps, in a weird way.]

Mmm... that's not really the reason why I wanted to come over, though, [she says finally without looking up at him.]
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[personal profile] gotyourbach 2018-02-27 11:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[She hums again, taking a deep breath as if to steel her resolve.]

It's... about the killing game. Do you still think about it...? Everything that happened to us, everything that happened to our friends...

I can't stop thinking about it. I'm trying, but it's really hard to move forward like this...
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[personal profile] gotyourbach 2018-03-02 07:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[She closes her eyes when he starts twirling her hair, comforted somewhat by the familiar gesture, but she still ends up making a little noise of discontent at his explanation. Because she isn't satisfied with it, because no matter how sure Shuichi is that they made the right choice, she can't help but think there had to have been another way. If she'd been there, maybe...

Maybe this is what Kokichi was talking about.]


I don't think I can do that, Shuichi-kun, [she says finally, opening her eyes again and looking up at him.] Or... I guess, I don't know how to do that, or if I even want to. Maybe if everybody else was here, it'd be easier, but without them...

[She shakes her head, what little she can without lifting her head much off his chest.]

I keep dreaming about it. What happened to me and everyone else.
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[personal profile] gotyourbach 2018-03-02 09:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Sometimes, yeah...

[Sometimes it is because of what he thought it was?? And being lonely usually goes right along with the nightmares, so those two things kind of go together. But yeah, mostly it's because of the nightmares, and she winces and pushes herself up a little higher to meet his eyes.]

I didn't say anything because I didn't want to worry you. It's not because I didn't trust you or anything, it's just... I thought the dreams would go away on their own. You couldn't have known.
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[personal profile] gotyourbach 2018-03-02 10:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[She squeaks with surprise when he tugs her in, but doesn't protest other than that, nestling her chin in his shoulder and wrapping an arm around him in return. She's not Takoma but she's trying, a little.]

It helps a lot, [she murmurs with a quiet exhale. Her arms squeeze him a little more tightly.] Just being able to hear your heartbeat... it's the most comforting rhythm I can imagine.

[And his breathing, and his warmth, and just being close to him... it all fills her with the kind of courage that's usually so easy.]

I'm sorry, I should have told you sooner...
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[personal profile] gotyourbach 2018-03-02 10:45 pm (UTC)(link)
I will. I promise.

[She squeezes her eyes tightly shut and nuzzles her nose into his shoulder. Kokichi's right, again, as always. It's kind of annoying, actually?? She likes that little gremlin, but also kind of hates him. It's Complicated.]

I just... didn't want to tell you about them because I didn't want you to worry about me. And then it just seemed like it had been too long, and it was too late to talk about it. I didn't think about your feelings, Shuichi-kun, I'm sorry.
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[personal profile] gotyourbach 2018-03-03 12:23 am (UTC)(link)
[Shuichi... you're too good for her. She hums and nuzzles her nose against his shoulder again.]

I'm glad you don't have dreams about it, too, [she mumbles, squeezing him again. Then they'd just be THREE messed up kids, and that would be awful.] Oma-kun is the one who told me I should talk about them with you in the first place... he cares about you a lot, you know.
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[personal profile] gotyourbach 2018-03-03 12:39 am (UTC)(link)
Mmhm.

[She feels a little guilty ratting Kokichi out like this, but... well, she did promise she'd make him more friends, didn't she?? And that means making sure that Kokichi and Shuichi are able to talk to each other a little better. In spite of Kokichi's.......

*gestures to all of him*]


I told him about my own back when you told me about his, and his first question back then was why I hadn't talked about it with you. And then he brought it up again earlier and said that I'd hurt your feelings if you ever found out on your own. And he's really grateful that you, um, put up with him.

He acts like a jerk, but he really does think of the two of us as his friends. The only two people outside of D.I.C.E., it sounded like.
Edited (REDUNDANCY what i get for stopping a tag to get food and then starting over again without rereading) 2018-03-03 00:46 (UTC)
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[personal profile] gotyourbach 2018-03-03 01:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Mmm...

[Well, she wasn't there for most of the game, so. That's news to her. But it also sounded different when he was talking about Shuichi, specifically, and the attention Shuichi paid to him.]

Well... I think he tries really hard to pretend like he doesn't. Because that's just the kind of person he is.

[Does Kokichi do the average, normal amount of anything??]

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