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[There's a slightly pained groan as a corner of the tissue box kind of stabs Shuichi in the gut. Apparently that was not the best place for the tissues after all, hold on he needs let go for a second so he can move that before it happens again. There we go, that's better.]

[But other than that, Shuichi doesn't make a sound. He just holds the smaller boy in his lap and lets him cry all over his shirt. It's just a shirt for training anyway, who cares if it gets tears and snot on it. It's not like it isn't already a little sweaty, anyway. He does pat his back a few times though. Gently, hopefully reassuringly.]

[It's not until Kokichi has calmed down considerably that Shuichi finally speaks, still keeping his arms wrapped around him.]

I was half right, Oma-kun. After everything you did back then...you did deserve to be alone. The way you toyed with us and laughed at us...nobody would want to be friends with someone so heartless, you barely even seemed human at the time.

[Pure malice. You looked like malice given a human form.]

But...that Oma-kun was a lie, wasn't he? And you said it yourself...lies are infinite possibilities, right? That's not really who you are at all, even if you can convincingly act that way. So...I'm not going to take what I said back, not really. But I am going to apologize for it; I'm going to apologize to the Oma-kun who's here right now. Because he doesn't deserve to be alone, even if he made some really terrible decisions and mistakes that even he can't forgive himself for.

[He's quiet as he listens, still clutching to him and leaning his head against his shoulder. This time, when Shuichi's done, there's no argument. He doesn't disagree, he doesn't fight him on it...partially because he's too tired to, partially because he wants to believe him even if before he was so sure the detective was right, that he would be alone...

Mostly, though, it's because when it's worded like that, it makes it easier to believe and accept. When it's labeled with truths and lies...

He pulls himself closer, arms tightening around the detective some as he nods his head, just a little. The crying that he thought had finally quit starts up again, but it's not the same agonized sobs this time. This time it's something calmer, sad but grateful. Though...even if he's accepting this, and believing it...]

...please don't...ever leave me alone again, Saihara-chan. I promise I won't ever give you a reason to so...please.

[He still has to ask, to plead with him, just for the extra peace of mind.]

Please.

[Once again, Shuichi can't help but wonder if things would have gone differently had they not collectively ignored Kokichi during the game. Kaito had been so sure that that was the right thing to do, and yet...he'd been so wrong. That much is obvious to Shuichi now.]

I won't. [He smiles softly, resting his cheek against the side of Kokichi's head.] Promise.

[...Kokichi means figuratively, right? Shuichi likes him and all but he doesn't want to have the crazy little gremlin glued to his hip constantly.]

[If he were in a better mood, he'd probably tease him with that. Something about handcuffing himself to the detective, most likely, and he's not exactly safe from this later once he's recovered. But yes, he means figuratively, don't worry.]

Thank you.

[Hey, you don't mind if he stays like this for a little longer, do you? Just soak up every little bit of comfort he can before it inevitably has to end...which may be sooner, rather than later, as after about a minute of just nice, relaxing quiet, Kokichi yawns. And that gets him to sit back a little in Shuichi's lap, freeing his hands so he can wipe at his eyes and face with his sleeves.

He looks absolutely drained now, everything heavy and ready for a nap or something... Not surprising, he never has emotional outbursts like that, so they're pretty tiring.]

[Judging by the fact that he doesn't try and force Kokichi out of his lap or tell him to get up...he doesn't seem to mind. He's not going anywhere, it's fine.]

[When the leader pulls back to start wiping at his face, however, Shuichi does reach over for the tissue box to offer it to him.]

Here.

[Don't use your sleeves, that's gross.]

[Another quiet thank you as he takes a couple, using those instead. He blows his nose once, curling the tissue tight into his hand afterward and then going back to leaning against his shoulder. He wraps his arms around just one of Shuichi's now, rather than around the boy himself, but still rests his head against the crook between his shoulder and neck again. Quiet, shoulders and body slowly relaxing against him, unwinding...]

...I don't know what I'd do without you here, y'know...?

[He sounds tired as he says it, but it's loud enough to make sure Shuichi could hear him. No whispers or mumbles. And it's actually followed by a chuckle, though there's no real amusement in it.]

Probably end up dead again.

Well...luckily, you'll never have to find out.

[He'd mention that Kokichi would still have Kaede but...she could only help him so much with this. She just wasn't there for most of the killing game, even if she can almost certainly relate to the feeling of doing something terrible that you can never forgive yourself for.]

[He gives Kokichi a few more moments of relaxing before nudging him gently.]

Come on, you should go lie down before you fall asleep. The bed is more comfortable than I am.

[Also Shuichi himself is starting to get a little uncomfortable since he...still has one leg tucked underneath him. Kinda hurts a little bit. He didn't really get a chance to shift into a more comfortable position when Kokichi crawled into his lap...he was too concerned with getting the tissues out of the way.]

[He hums a little at that with a nod, and then hums again when Shuichi suggests lying down. It takes just a little more effort than it should to get up and out of his lap, moving towards the bed without any fight but stopping at the end of the couch. Turning around, he gives the detective a thoughtful, tired look. His eyelids are already drooping, arms just kind of hanging limply at his sides, definitely tired...and then he glances back at the bed and away from him, bringing up a hand to chew on his thumb a little, debating something.]

...you're...still willing to do whatever I want you to, if I need something...?

[As soon as Kokichi is out of his lap, Shuichi shifts to free his trapped leg...which is now kind of starting to fall asleep. Fun.]

Ah...! [He shakes his foot a little bit, completely oblivious to whatever debate Kokichi is having over by his bed. Until the other boy starts talking to him again, that is?] Hm? Oh, right. Yes, I am.

[He doesn't add the "within reason" this time because hopefully that goes without saying by now. Plus, with Kokichi in a rare serious mood, he's pretty sure he's not going to ask him anything ridiculous.]

What do you need?

[Definitely not going to ask him anything ridiculous. Though at first it seems like he might not actually ask for whatever he wants either, just sitting in silence, chewing on his lip a little now. But eventually he face his friend.]

Can... [It's okay to ask. He said it's okay, and things are okay between you two, so it's okay to ask!!

....]

Just. Just stand up for me for a minute.

[Shuichi quirks a brow but does as asked, wobbling a little bit thanks to the numb, tingling sensation now spreading slowly up his leg.]

[But okay, he's standing. Now what?]

[Now he's going to step forward, before he has a chance to change his mind, and wrap his arms around the detective's chest, burying his face in his shoulder. With a little squeeze and everything! He wants a hug...a proper, not snotty and gross hug...]

[It takes Shuichi a few seconds to realize that Kokichi probably wants him to return the hug, at which point he raises his arms to do just that.]

[There you go. A nice, proper, not snotty but still maybe a little gross because Shuichi is a little sweaty hug.]

[He really doesn't care about the sweat, just sighing into and leaning against him a little. He nuzzles his cheek against him a little, enjoying it immensely, though doesn't drag it out.

But even when he does back off, he's seemingly not done with Shuichi. He drops his hands to take both of the detective's in his own, taking a few steps back towards the bed and tugging him along with him.]

Will you...at least sit with me? Until I fall asleep? You don't have to stay with me the whole time or anything...though I...wouldn't mind it if you did...

[Look, he actually asked this time. Look at him go! He struggled a little, mumbling the last part, but he's close enough that Shuichi could probably hear him...]

[Shuichi quirks a brow as Kokichi starts tugging at his hands, though he doesn't move immediately. Whatcha doin there, buddy? Oh. That's what.]

[He nods.]

I still need to finish my training, but I'll sit with you until you fall asleep and then again once I'm done.

[And after he takes a shower and changes out of his gross training clothes.]

[It's not much of a smile, but the little one he gives Shuichi is still more of a smile than he's had this entire time. Letting go of one of his hands, he uses the other to continue pulling him after him, heading towards the bed so he can crawl into it. And while he climbs under the covers without any fuss, he stays sitting up, watching the detective expectantly.

Okay, your turn!!!]

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[While Kokichi gets comfortable, Shuichi takes a moment to shake his leg a few more times to try and wake his foot back up. It...sort of helps. A little bit.]

[He doesn't get under the covers, but Shuichi takes a seat next to Kokichi just as promised. Now go to sleep you little weirdo.]

[He doesn't lay down immediately, just glancing down at Shuichi's leg.

...he's not feeling great, still, but it's about time he hit the reset button on his feelings he thinks. So he forces a smile onto his face and points at his leg.]

Pins and needles?

Mmm...it's starting to go away though.

Let me help! [It's a happy cheer as he leans forward quickly, hands moving to grab his leg and start manhandling it. He's totally going to wake your leg up for you! So what if he you know...makes the pins and needles that are still there a little worse. He's helping!!]

A-Ah! [Shuichi's leg twitches reflexively as Kokichi grabs it, and Shuichi himself leans forward to try and pull the leader's hands away.] O-Oma-kun, that's not helping! Stop!

[Weren't you going to sleep???]

No trust me, it'll definitely help! [He's still grabbing it all over, trying to find the spots that are the worst so he can really get at those.]

It's like splashing water on someone! You gotta shock it awake!

[And Shuichi is still attempting to swat or pull his hands away. He's also probably kicked Kokichi purely on reflex at least once by now, sorry not sorry that's what you get for fucking with his leg like this.]

It's not like that at all! You're making it worse!!

[He doesn't lessen the assault at all, laughing brightly as he continues.]

Say the magic words!

Please stop!

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eventually i will have an icon that's a look of mild surprise instead of near-heart attack shock...

should i make you some while i'm making some kokichi ones??

nah, just kick my butt into working on my manga coloring

okay!!!

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