diffidentive: But the first one has to be where you got the flamethrower. (ponder ✯ I’ve got a lot of questions.)
Shuichi "Beta-est of Betas" Saihara ✯ 最原 終一 ([personal profile] diffidentive) wrote2017-11-13 11:58 am
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slieght: in lack of compassion. (We were tigers)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-28 06:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Just as...? [There's a quiet, hopeful tone to his voice as he repeats those two words, probably belaying how he's felt about the two of them this whole time, or confirming what his previous statement implied. The fact that he felt he and Shuichi would probably never get terribly close.

But the detective just implied - no, outright stated - that he could be a best friend too. That he could grow just as close to him as Kaito...and then Shuichi continues, telling him that he thinks he's charismatic too, in his own way! The leader has to glance away, stare at the oh so interesting floor, while he tries to find a way to change the conversation. Or at least steer it away from himself.]


W-well...honestly, I can't see you keeping up with a plastic bag being blown around in the wind, Saihara-chan~ So it's not like I doubted he could be annoying and tiring, or anything!

[He's just moreso, that's all.]
slieght: in lack of compassion. (And by that I mean I told her the)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-29 02:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[He most certainly always thought of Shuichi as his friend, even when it seemed like he didn't. And he valued that friendship a great deal. He still does, despite how careful and cautious he's being about it. It likely means more to him than Shuichi will probably ever know...

It's not really that he doesn't believe the detective though, but more that...he's scared of making a mistake. Out of everyone who hated him by the end of his time in the killing game, it was Shuichi who drew a clear, crisp line between himself and the leader. They were all obvious in how much they didn't like him, but none of the others made it quite as obvious that he'd ruined his chances of being even part of their group and that there'd be no going back like he did.

So now it's hard...despite the fact that Shuichi accepted his apology and obviously doesn't hate him anymore, it's hard to fully trust that just yet. Even now, when it's stated so plainly...there's a part of him that finds it hard to accept that as fact still.

Which is why he smiles and laughs it off again.]


That's true, it does sound like that doesn't it? I guess it's not very fair of me to assume things like that. But it's pretty easy to think that way for me, you know? I'm a liar, after all~ Even when people around me do and say worse things, opinions of me still tend to be lower. And then you have- [Kokichi stops and goes quiet, brows furrowing a little as he gives what he was about to say a little more thought. And then he shakes his head.]

Ah, no, I shouldn't say that. I've already said enough, and it doesn't really matter anyway, right? I just shouldn't assume things like that. So I'm sorry I did, Saihara-chan~

[While it's said with a sort of carefree tone of voice, he does still give him a slight bow in apology.]
slieght: in lack of compassion. (I love those moments where I have to)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-29 10:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[He knows! But it still hurt a lot, okay?

Kokichi glances over at the board as well, with a sort of questioning hum.]


Oh! I sold it~ [Said as...cheerily as ever.] I've just been sleeping on the couch anyway, and there wouldn't be a whole lot of room for the dry erase board in here with the bed in here too. So I found some creepy dude who was excited that I'd slept in it and sold it to him. Didn't pay a whole lot, but it was still something.

[And then he looks back to Shuichi, grinning.]

Too bad for him I never even laid down in it~
slieght: in lack of compassion. (And by that I mean I told her the)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-29 11:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[That's probably not something you really want to know, Shuichi.]

Well it's a full sized mattress, right? That's way too much room for someone as small as me. It's like...uncomfortably empty, y'know? [It's lonely.]

The couch is perfect though! Things would be more perfect if they just had normal futons but this is good enough.
slieght: of drunk UNO. (I'm about to initiate a game)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-29 11:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Aha...how did I not catch onto this when you asked about my bed? I'm totally cornered here~ [He's laughing despite this fact, in a sort of helpless manner. Unless he can give Shuichi a really convincing lie that he'll actually buy, he'll know something is really wrong if he tries to get out of answering...can he come up with that good of a lie with how tired he is?

His sly, teasing smile doesn't have as much weight to it as it usually does, but it still falls into place as naturally as it always has.]


Well Sai~hara~chan~ This game is all about keeping each other up all night, isn't it? I hate sleeping during the day if I can help it, but the people I usually lay prefer doing it at night. So unfortunately I'm caught in a kind of burning the candles at both ends situation. Not the most healthy, I know, but squares don't fill themselves~

[He can sure as hell try. That's totally believable, isn't it? It's not exactly wrong, the only sexual encounter of his so far that had been during the day was his very first one...that's not why he's having a hard time sleeping, but let's see if the detective can puzzle that fact out.]
slieght: in lack of compassion. (And by that I mean I told her the)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-30 12:24 am (UTC)(link)
[Shit. Alright, that's fine. He'll try something else then. His momma didn't raise no quitter!]

Define your definition of "decent"~! I've been pretty satisfied with the sleep I've been getting, even if it hasn't been a lot. And I'm more than happy with how I've been spending my time awake. I've been pretty productive, after all!

[A hand lifts to point towards the whiteboard.]

I got my bed situation taken care of, purchased that, found a place that will make dick waffles for me on request, did a couple of good late night study sessions so I can continue tackling this game to the best of my abilities, met new people...it's been super satisfying!
slieght: saw your tits last night. And booed. (Just so you know the whole club)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-30 01:15 am (UTC)(link)
[He should have, it's true. Should have just told the truth from the beginning too, but oh well.]

So it's impossible to get actually restful sleep just because I haven't been getting much of it?

[He leans back a little, trying to look as calm and relaxed as possible.]

Naps can be plenty restful, but you can still look terrible if that's all you're getting! And it's pretty unfair to say that none of those would keep me up all night. I put 200% of my effort into everything I do, so between those things and sleeping around, I've been super busy! You can't assume that's a lie when you've never joined me on any of these evenings, you know. That's like claiming a tree doesn't make sound when it falls just because you weren't around to hear it!
slieght: in lack of compassion. (Okay I said sorry.)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-30 01:31 am (UTC)(link)
No! [Kokichi pouts immediately, sitting up straight again.]

I'm purposefully hiding my card from you guys to make this game more interesting. Showing you would totally ruin that!
slieght: of drunk UNO. (I'm about to initiate a game)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-30 01:47 am (UTC)(link)
[The more he talks, the more cornered he gets, but he still doesn't seem intent on giving up. Finally he gets to experience the Argument Armament! Too bad he doesn't look cooler for it like everyone else did.]

Maybe I haven't, but that doesn't really mean anything. I never specified that they were my squares they were filling~ There are lots of people here who want to get home real bad, y'know? They're pretty willing to split their reward with someone helping out. The job of an escort is pretty lucrative here!
slieght: in lack of compassion. (And by that I mean I told her the)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-30 02:12 am (UTC)(link)
Things like "hardest difficulty" can be pretty fluid, can't they? What's hard for me could be totally different than what's hard for someone else. So maybe that is the hardest difficulty in my case~

[That's definitely a weak argument, but he's running out of things he can say. He's running out of lies and excuses...]
slieght: in lack of compassion. (I love those moments where I have to)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-30 07:10 pm (UTC)(link)
I already told you, it would ruin all the fun... [The protest is mumbled as he shifts uncomfortably, arms folding over and pressing against his stomach somewhat as he looks away. The problem with that is that he's not having fun, not that Shuichi knows that.

He doesn't have many roads left to take though...at this point he should just fold. Quit while he's ahead, and maybe if the real reason why he isn't getting sleep wasn't so uncomfortable he would...

So instead he heaves a heavy sigh, as if he has nothing left to defend himself with, and gives the detective a weary smile.]


Alright, alright... I've just been out playing games most nights at the arcade. I get super wrapped up in them, so I lose track of time. I didn't want to tell you because I don't want some annoying lecture. Or worse, have you mention it to Akamatsu-chan and then have her lecture me or something. At least you just sound like a mom when you do it, but she's really annoying!

[100% the truth Shuichi.]
slieght: record. Almost puked. Totally worth it. (Just beat my spinning in office chair)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-30 07:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Wow, Saihara-chan, you sure are talking as if you're some kind of lying expert suddenly~

[Don't think he didn't catch that edge there, buddy.]

How are you so sure that's not true, huh?
slieght: in lack of compassion. (9)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-30 10:22 pm (UTC)(link)
[There's really...nothing he can say to that. Or rather, nothing he can say to avoid it, in any case. He could try and come up with another lie, but...]

...that's not very fair, leaving a liar like me no other moves to make, you know. Haha...

[He's still laughing a little, still smiling, but distinctly looking away from Shuichi now. And even with those, he just looks...tired. Sure, the mask is still there, but he's just putting the bare amount of effort into keeping it on now. He was exhausted before, and then everything about this conversation has made that worse. Just talking made him tired, lying made him tired, listening to the detective figure it all out and corner him made him tired...

The leader tips over and sags against the couch, going almost boneless with a heavy sigh. He definitely gives up now. There's no real fight left in him, even if he could try and come up with something else to say. Though for a long moment, he almost seems like he's choosing not to say anything period instead, resting his eyes and staying quiet...]


...it's...not really any one thing that happened, Saihara-chan. Or I guess it's that I'm dealing with a lot of things, all at once, really. But you're right...I'm not really having fun anymore. Not sure how fun it was to begin with.

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