[No, it does not help. The radio silence nearly kills him on its own, Kokichi pacing around his room, gently pounding his forehead against a wall, staring at the messenger for large amounts of time...
She already talked to him. Of course she did, he knew she would, but she definitely already talked to him. He's ignoring him now, isn't he? He hates him. They both hate him. Why is he even--
Oh. Okay, it was just...he just didn't have his watch on, that makes sense. Who sleeps with a watch on? Everything is fine, even if his life was definitely shortened twenty years.]
[Well he's not entirely wrong. She DID talk to him already, however...when she'd offered to tell him who she dream slept with, he'd declined the information. So he has no reason to ignore Kokichi, especially not when the other boy is being...somewhat. Serious.]
[That's actually a little concerning. Which is why he doesn't respond a second time, but rather walks down the hallway to Kokichi's cabin and knocks on the door.]
[It takes a moment or two before the door is actually answered, Kokichi taking a couple of deep breaths to calm himself down, nerves still a bit of a wreck from earlier. But then he opens the door, smile plastered onto his face as usual. Though...it's much, much tireder looking this time. All of him is. Over the past month he's been slowly looking worse and worse, but this is by far the worst he's looked yet. Mostly because, when he went out to see people, he did his best to cover it up. Even going so far as to use a little bit of makeup to hide what he could.
But there's none of that now, the leader not having bothered when he had a much more pressing matter on his mind. Plus...it's Shuichi. He's the one person on this whole station that he's not that scared of looking worse for wear in front of, even if he knows he'll probably ask. Well...maybe. Assuming he doesn't wash his hands of him after he apologizes. He looks like he just woke up and hastily brushed his hair and put on some clean clothes, but that's not what's concerning. There are some pretty impressive bags under his bloodshot eyes and he almost looks a little paler than usual. Kind of hard to tell, when he's already so light skinned. It's clear he hasn't slept well, if at all, in a long while.]
That was quick!
[But he's still as good as ever masking it in his voice, his tone convincingly cheerful and chipper. He gestures for him to come in, moving out of the way so he's able to.]
Didn't even give me time to order anything, though breakfast time has probably passed, huh~?
[While waiting for Kokichi to answer the door, he'd begun to wonder...had he perhaps made a mistake? He'd assumed that Kokichi was the one male he COULD rule out as the person who'd dream-slept with Kaede. Because surely, if she had, she would just just said so from the start. But now that he has a moment to think about it...the timing of his message is definitely suspect and his detective's intuition is piqued.]
[But then Kokichi answers the door and one look is all it takes for Shuichi to realize what he thought was his detective's intuition was probably just paranoia. The leader clearly hasn't slept in a few days. And if he wasn't asleep last night, it can't have been him.]
[But now he's even more concerned than he was before. Kokichi hadn't looked this bad when he'd last seen him. Hell, aside from the scrapes and bruises on his face from falling down on the ice so much, he hadn't even looked bad, period. He'd seemed normal.]
[But clearly, he'd missed something. Circles like that don't happen in just one night. He must have been wearing concealer. Really good futuristic space concealer, because Shuichi hadn't been able to see a difference at all.]
[Or maybe Kokichi is just that good at putting on makeup. Honestly, he'd believe it.]
M-mm...well I'd just left my room when I saw your message, so...I wasn't very far away. [This is clearly not what he wants to talk about, however, judging by his expression. But he still feels bad about unintentionally keeping Kokichi waiting for so long and kind of figures he owes him an explanation.]
Oma-kun...when was the last time you slept? You look terrible.
[Yeah he is not buying that chipper facade, he knows that's a lie. He's also not coming inside Kokichi's room, despite the gestured invitation.]
Ah, that's what I want to talk to you about, actually. The sleeping thing, not the other thing.
[Not the part where he looks terrible. He gestures again, smile growing just a little bit strained but insistent.]
I really don't want to have this conversation out in the open, Saihara-chan, so it'd be a lot better if you'd come sit down, you know? And just last night, if you need an answer before you'll do that. I...slept last night.
[Might want to listen to your intuition, Shuichi.]
[...okay, maybe he WAS right to be suspicious. Still though...why wouldn't Kaede have just said so immediately?]
Alright...
[Only one way to figure this out for sure. And that's to follow Kokichi into his room. How's it changed in the month since he was last here? And where do you want him to sit, friend?]
[It's...well. It's definitely a little more well lived in. There are some boxes in a corner that obviously came from the arcade, still filled with his ill-gotten prizes from his take over, some clothes strewn about, a few note pads and sketchbooks on the coffee table, as well as loose leaf pages with childish doodles on them nestled on top of or underneath the books. Crayons and pencils also make an appearance there too. The couch still has a pillow and blanket on it, whereas the bed is...
Well, actually, there is no bed?? Where you might expect one sits a white board, though it's empty, perhaps freshly bought.
Like last time, he tosses the blanket and pillow into the corner of the couch to make room for Shuichi, sitting on top of those himself.]
Go ahead and sit down on the couch here, it's fine. Sorry I didn't have time to really tidy up.
[At least there's not like...clothes and underwear all over the place?
With the door closed and the two of them inside, Kokichi actually relaxes enough to show just how tired he is. Though that's partially because he's just too tired to keep it up at this point. This has been his pattern...he just goes until he's exhausted and then passes out, giving him a little more energy to keep up his mask. But that fantasy night with Kaede could hardly count as sleep when he woke up and immediately began stressing over it...]
[Where in the world did his bed go? And what is that board? At least this retroactively answers the question he never asked about the pillows and blankets on Kokichi's couch last time. He didn't have a friend over, Kokichi himself was sleeping on the couch...for some reason.]
[What a weirdo.]
It's fine... [Though didn't he technically have a few hours to tidy up while he was waiting on a response? What the heck was he doing this whole time?]
[He sold his bed for some extra cash, and the white board is going to be used later, for a secret project. And he used that time to beat himself up over this whole mess...]
I. Well. [He holds his breath for a few beats and then lets it out in a little laugh.] Aha...I didn't have enough time to think what I wanted to say through all the way! Maybe I should have waited.
[Lifting a hand, the leader rubs at his eyes a little before bringing it up to remove the communicator cuff from his ear and pocket it. And then he straightens up some, followed by a bow. It's nothing like last time - first of all he's sitting down, so a little different, and second of all it's not nearly as deep either. Though it is still clearly very apologetic in nature.]
Last night...due to some unfortunate glitches in the stations system, I found myself in one of Akamatsu-chan's fantasies. I think that maybe I was having a fantasy of my own and...they mixed, or something? Haha, it was super weird. But...I wanted to apologize for that, because I ended up sleeping with her.
[It's not as collected as his last apology at all, Kokichi having a hard time actually putting his thoughts properly into words...but he's speaking slowly and carefully, as though he's aware of this and trying to correct for it. It's also pretty clear just how nervous he is as well, fumbling somewhat with his explanation that follows.]
I'm...sorry that I did that. That I couldn't....help myself? Stop myself? Ah...I should have been more aware of what I was doing. But because I wasn't, I managed to take her...ah...to sleep with her. Before you had a chance to do so. I. I'm sorry Saihara-chan.
[Kokichi, why would you sell your bed. What the fuck.]
...ah. So it was you, after all. [Shuichi looks...surprisingly okay for a guy who just got the news that his only friend slept with his girlfriend. Actually, he almost seems vaguely relieved to hear Kokichi say all this?] I appreciate your honesty and your apology, but uh...you can relax, I'm not mad or anything.
[A beat.]
Well...not mad at you or Akamatsu-san, at least. Neither of you had any control over the situation, so it wasn't your fault. [He is, however, a little angry with whoever is in charge of the winter display up in the dome. Which was a part of the reason he wanted to go up there and investigate. Maybe he could lodge a complaint with management.] This malfunction or glitch or whatever it is really messes with your head. I know neither of you would have done this if your sense of reality hadn't been so warped.
[Kinda sounds like he's speaking from first hand experience here, rather than parroting assurances given to him by Kaede.]
So...don't beat yourself up over it, alright? As long as it doesn't happen in reality, there's no problem.
[It takes him a moment to reply to that, brows furrowed like he's clearly processing it. Not because he's too tired to understand, but because...well...]
It may have just been a fantasy, but it still filled a square so it still counted, right? I still stole your first time with her from you...are you seriously not mad over that?
[He sounds incredulous, almost offended but more on Shuichi's behalf. Don't get him wrong, he doesn't want Shuichi to be mad and hate him like he's been scared of this whole time, but...]
Saihara-chan, you aren't going to tell that to every guy who fantasy fucks her, right? Not saying it will definitely happen again, but what if it does? With this glitching, it could...I mean, I don't want you to be mad, but...
[He's worried about you, bro. You need to stand up for yourself? What the fuck Shuichi.]
I'm really not mad. Because your entire assumption there is wrong. You didn't steal anything from me.
[You're like...a month late there, buddy. He was definitely Kaede's first. And in reality, not a fantasy.]
Plus...neither Akamatsu-san nor I really care about filling squares. [They're playing the game, but by their own set of rules. So...they're also kind of not playing the game, technically.] And even if we did, arousal is all it takes for something to "count" as far as this game is concerned, you know? The two of you weren't even in the same room, and you never touched each other.
[Didn't you know that, Kokichi? You don't actually HAVE have sex, so long as it's kinky. The two are apparently not mutually exclusive.]
So, no, I don't think it counts. Not in any way that really matters, anyway. Essentially all the two of you did was share a particularly vivid joint fantasy that you both found arousing.
[Does that sound like sex to you, Kokichi? Because it doesn't to him.]
[He looks a little surprised by the "you didn't steal anything from me" comment, because in his mind that definitely implies that they've done it already. Which good for him, and that's a relief, but that relief is short lived.
He couldn't hide the affect that "you only have to be aroused for it to count" has on him even if he tried. Even if he was more awake, and wasn't in the middle of apologizing for something he viewed as a grave mistake. The rest of the color in his face drains as there's a sharp, unpleasant twist in his stomach and his expression darkens some. Not with anger, but with something that looks a little more like pain, or like he's going to be sick.
He very, very clearly didn't know that. And equally as clearly wishes he had. He looks away from Shuichi, offering him a sort of non-committal sound at first and a nod before commenting.]
Guess that makes sense, yeah...guess. I was worried for nothing, then. [Nice. Great. How fun.] Thank you for being so understanding, Saihara-chan...I'm really relieved.
[I'm betting neither of you got "excited" over cuddling, and that's probably a requirement, right?]
[Why hadn't he fully tested that assumption? Shuichi and Kaede's failure to fill the cuddling square their first night here had proved that arousal needed to be involved, but...had Kokichi really just stopped there? Did he really not test it further? Had he really not attempted to figure out the finer intricacies of the game he'd been so eager to play?]
[Apparently not, because that look says all too clearly that he did something he regrets. Something that he wouldn't have done, had he known about that particular stipulation. Something pretty bad, judging by how ashen Kokichi's face has become.]
[It seems like every time the two of them talk, Kokichi just gives Shuichi at least one new reason to worry about him. Though this meeting is by far the most concerning yet. The boy is an absolute mess and Shuichi can only speculate on the reasons why and how he's come to be in this state.]
[For a brief moment, Shuichi hopes that maybe, just maybe, Kokichi will finally take him up on his offer to talk. That maybe Shuichi will finally have some idea of what's really bothering him...]
[But, of course, he doesn't. Despite the all-too-obvious concern in Shuichi's voice, Kokichi just puts his smiling mask back in place and shifts the conversation away from himself. Of course he does. Why have a serious conversation about feelings when you can make fun of the wimpy detective?]
[He sighs again, and his cheeks flush ever-so-faintly pink.]
Yes, we did.
[Maybe if he just...goes along with the teasing, he can try and steer the conversation back towards Kokichi and whatever problems he's clearly having. Maybe. Hopefully.]
No, I think it really is! I'm sure I've ready plenty of respectable sources on the subject matter.
[100% factual sources that are in no way merely gossip or fiction books.]
"Bros" are supposed to text one another immediately when they finally lose their virginity, so that their bro can congratulate them that night and plan a party for the near future to celebrate it. Usually by going out with their other bros!
[Drinking, dancing, going to strip clubs...that sort of thing!]
Of course I've never had a bro before, so I guess I don't really know what that's like, but if I did I'd totally want a party. Which is why I'm sad you didn't text me! Though I can still throw you one~
[The more he ridiculous he makes this conversation, the more tired the detective will get with it, and then he will want to leave. That's the goal here.]
[Yes, this conversation is tiring in its ridiculousness, but...that's kind of on par for the course with Kokichi. Talking to him is almost ALWAYS at least a little exhausting. So, unfortunately, he's used to it and has no intention of leaving.]
[His worry outweighs his exasperation, sorry Kokichi.]
Okay, wait...I'm confused now. Are you disappointed that I didn't throw you a party or that you didn't get the chance to throw me one? [He thought it was the latter but now he's not so sure. Since Apparently...Kokichi was sad that Shuichi didn't text him because HE wants a party? Oh my god he's even harder to keep up with when he's sleep deprived how is this even possible.] Also, when did we become "bros"? I feel like I missed something there...
[That is...not the word he would use to describe his friendship with Kokichi. At all.]
Aha, both! Then again, I guess it would have been impossible to have a party thrown for me, seeing as we weren't really friends when I lost my virginity.
[From his perspective, anyway. Suddenly he leans forward, only a tiny bit of a wobble as he does so, and puts as much energy as he can muster into an excited reaction.]
And we're not, but that's what I mean! Wouldn't it be cool if we were? Though it's not like you have a bro either, right? So you're missing out on the party! I'd even be willing to keep it low energy and low key for you, since I know you're definitely not the go out and drink type of guy. Maybe just order us a couple escorts for the night and we can stay in instead!
[You know, Kaito? Purple hair? Wears house slippers all the time? Has a dumb little goatee? Even if he's not here right now, he's still Shuichi's bro. Their brotherly bond transcends universes and also life and death.]
But even if he was, I still wouldn't share what Akamatsu-san and I did, and I wouldn't want a party like that. It just seems a little...disrespectful.
[To Kaede, presumably. Apparently, for as tight a bond as he and Kaito share, Shuichi does not acknowledge the "bros before hoes" clause of the bro code.]
But if you really want a part of your own, then...I guess we could go do something for that. Nothing involving escorts, though.
[He's pretty sure that was supposed to be a joke, but still.]
[He sits back up, yawning a long moment before continuing. Sorry...he's tired.]
You're celebrating becoming a man! Or...something. Also not here means you don't have a bro, y'know? But I guess it'd be pretty impossible for me to compare to Momota-chan, so I won't bother trying, don't worry.
[He was hoping you wouldn't bring him up too. You're ruining all of his hopes and dreams here, Shuichi. Every time he has one for this conversation, you dash it!]
The escort thing was a lie~ I don't even know where to get one here! Well, that's a lie too, I know a few establishments. Maybe we can find a host club to visit instead~
[Shuichi is silent for a few moments, just staring at Kokichi with a look of concern.]
You're you and Momota-kun is Momota-kun. It's not that you can't compare to him, rather the bond I have with him and the one I have with you are two completely different things.
[I'm sorry, were you trying to keep this conversation light and silly? Guess that's yet another hope and/or dream dashed because Shuichi has more serious intentions in mind.]
I wouldn't want you to try and be Momota-kun instead of being yourself.
[Kokichi, in turn, is quiet following that, smile falling just a little. But it's only a moment that this lasts before he laughs again.]
You make it surprisingly difficult to keep a light mood going, did you know that? [His tone is still light and cheery, not really matching what he's saying at all.]
Self-depreciation is a classic way to lift the mood between two people who are merely friends~ It lets you either commiserate with the person making the comment, or agree with the joke and everyone has a good laugh. I don't think you're supposed to try and correct it like that, Saihara-chan!
[Come on now, just let it slide. That's how it works.]
I wouldn't want to be him anyway, but since you've decided to turn this in a more serious direction instead, you at least have to agree that you'll always be closer with him, right? Because he's got charisma and a magnetic personality, but I'm just tiring and annoying~ That's what I was getting at. In that way, we are comparable, don't you think?
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She already talked to him. Of course she did, he knew she would, but she definitely already talked to him. He's ignoring him now, isn't he? He hates him. They both hate him. Why is he even--
Oh. Okay, it was just...he just didn't have his watch on, that makes sense. Who sleeps with a watch on? Everything is fine, even if his life was definitely shortened twenty years.]
Don't worry about it~!
I am, yeah.
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[That's actually a little concerning. Which is why he doesn't respond a second time, but rather walks down the hallway to Kokichi's cabin and knocks on the door.]
[That was fast.]
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But there's none of that now, the leader not having bothered when he had a much more pressing matter on his mind. Plus...it's Shuichi. He's the one person on this whole station that he's not that scared of looking worse for wear in front of, even if he knows he'll probably ask. Well...maybe. Assuming he doesn't wash his hands of him after he apologizes. He looks like he just woke up and hastily brushed his hair and put on some clean clothes, but that's not what's concerning. There are some pretty impressive bags under his bloodshot eyes and he almost looks a little paler than usual. Kind of hard to tell, when he's already so light skinned. It's clear he hasn't slept well, if at all, in a long while.]
That was quick!
[But he's still as good as ever masking it in his voice, his tone convincingly cheerful and chipper. He gestures for him to come in, moving out of the way so he's able to.]
Didn't even give me time to order anything, though breakfast time has probably passed, huh~?
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[But then Kokichi answers the door and one look is all it takes for Shuichi to realize what he thought was his detective's intuition was probably just paranoia. The leader clearly hasn't slept in a few days. And if he wasn't asleep last night, it can't have been him.]
[But now he's even more concerned than he was before. Kokichi hadn't looked this bad when he'd last seen him. Hell, aside from the scrapes and bruises on his face from falling down on the ice so much, he hadn't even looked bad, period. He'd seemed normal.]
[But clearly, he'd missed something. Circles like that don't happen in just one night. He must have been wearing concealer. Really good futuristic space concealer, because Shuichi hadn't been able to see a difference at all.]
[Or maybe Kokichi is just that good at putting on makeup. Honestly, he'd believe it.]
M-mm...well I'd just left my room when I saw your message, so...I wasn't very far away. [This is clearly not what he wants to talk about, however, judging by his expression. But he still feels bad about unintentionally keeping Kokichi waiting for so long and kind of figures he owes him an explanation.]
Oma-kun...when was the last time you slept? You look terrible.
[Yeah he is not buying that chipper facade, he knows that's a lie. He's also not coming inside Kokichi's room, despite the gestured invitation.]
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[Not the part where he looks terrible. He gestures again, smile growing just a little bit strained but insistent.]
I really don't want to have this conversation out in the open, Saihara-chan, so it'd be a lot better if you'd come sit down, you know? And just last night, if you need an answer before you'll do that. I...slept last night.
[Might want to listen to your intuition, Shuichi.]
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Alright...
[Only one way to figure this out for sure. And that's to follow Kokichi into his room. How's it changed in the month since he was last here? And where do you want him to sit, friend?]
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Well, actually, there is no bed?? Where you might expect one sits a white board, though it's empty, perhaps freshly bought.
Like last time, he tosses the blanket and pillow into the corner of the couch to make room for Shuichi, sitting on top of those himself.]
Go ahead and sit down on the couch here, it's fine. Sorry I didn't have time to really tidy up.
[At least there's not like...clothes and underwear all over the place?
With the door closed and the two of them inside, Kokichi actually relaxes enough to show just how tired he is. Though that's partially because he's just too tired to keep it up at this point. This has been his pattern...he just goes until he's exhausted and then passes out, giving him a little more energy to keep up his mask. But that fantasy night with Kaede could hardly count as sleep when he woke up and immediately began stressing over it...]
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[Where in the world did his bed go? And what is that board? At least this retroactively answers the question he never asked about the pillows and blankets on Kokichi's couch last time. He didn't have a friend over, Kokichi himself was sleeping on the couch...for some reason.]
[What a weirdo.]
It's fine... [Though didn't he technically have a few hours to tidy up while he was waiting on a response? What the heck was he doing this whole time?]
[But alright. Sitting down on the couch.]
So...what did you want to talk about?
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I. Well. [He holds his breath for a few beats and then lets it out in a little laugh.] Aha...I didn't have enough time to think what I wanted to say through all the way! Maybe I should have waited.
[Lifting a hand, the leader rubs at his eyes a little before bringing it up to remove the communicator cuff from his ear and pocket it. And then he straightens up some, followed by a bow. It's nothing like last time - first of all he's sitting down, so a little different, and second of all it's not nearly as deep either. Though it is still clearly very apologetic in nature.]
Last night...due to some unfortunate glitches in the stations system, I found myself in one of Akamatsu-chan's fantasies. I think that maybe I was having a fantasy of my own and...they mixed, or something? Haha, it was super weird. But...I wanted to apologize for that, because I ended up sleeping with her.
[It's not as collected as his last apology at all, Kokichi having a hard time actually putting his thoughts properly into words...but he's speaking slowly and carefully, as though he's aware of this and trying to correct for it. It's also pretty clear just how nervous he is as well, fumbling somewhat with his explanation that follows.]
I'm...sorry that I did that. That I couldn't....help myself? Stop myself? Ah...I should have been more aware of what I was doing. But because I wasn't, I managed to take her...ah...to sleep with her. Before you had a chance to do so. I. I'm sorry Saihara-chan.
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...ah. So it was you, after all. [Shuichi looks...surprisingly okay for a guy who just got the news that his only friend slept with his girlfriend. Actually, he almost seems vaguely relieved to hear Kokichi say all this?] I appreciate your honesty and your apology, but uh...you can relax, I'm not mad or anything.
[A beat.]
Well...not mad at you or Akamatsu-san, at least. Neither of you had any control over the situation, so it wasn't your fault. [He is, however, a little angry with whoever is in charge of the winter display up in the dome. Which was a part of the reason he wanted to go up there and investigate. Maybe he could lodge a complaint with management.] This malfunction or glitch or whatever it is really messes with your head. I know neither of you would have done this if your sense of reality hadn't been so warped.
[Kinda sounds like he's speaking from first hand experience here, rather than parroting assurances given to him by Kaede.]
So...don't beat yourself up over it, alright? As long as it doesn't happen in reality, there's no problem.
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It may have just been a fantasy, but it still filled a square so it still counted, right? I still stole your first time with her from you...are you seriously not mad over that?
[He sounds incredulous, almost offended but more on Shuichi's behalf. Don't get him wrong, he doesn't want Shuichi to be mad and hate him like he's been scared of this whole time, but...]
Saihara-chan, you aren't going to tell that to every guy who fantasy fucks her, right? Not saying it will definitely happen again, but what if it does? With this glitching, it could...I mean, I don't want you to be mad, but...
[He's worried about you, bro. You need to stand up for yourself? What the fuck Shuichi.]
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I'm really not mad. Because your entire assumption there is wrong. You didn't steal anything from me.
[You're like...a month late there, buddy. He was definitely Kaede's first. And in reality, not a fantasy.]
Plus...neither Akamatsu-san nor I really care about filling squares. [They're playing the game, but by their own set of rules. So...they're also kind of not playing the game, technically.] And even if we did, arousal is all it takes for something to "count" as far as this game is concerned, you know? The two of you weren't even in the same room, and you never touched each other.
[Didn't you know that, Kokichi? You don't actually HAVE have sex, so long as it's kinky. The two are apparently not mutually exclusive.]
So, no, I don't think it counts. Not in any way that really matters, anyway. Essentially all the two of you did was share a particularly vivid joint fantasy that you both found arousing.
[Does that sound like sex to you, Kokichi? Because it doesn't to him.]
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He couldn't hide the affect that "you only have to be aroused for it to count" has on him even if he tried. Even if he was more awake, and wasn't in the middle of apologizing for something he viewed as a grave mistake. The rest of the color in his face drains as there's a sharp, unpleasant twist in his stomach and his expression darkens some. Not with anger, but with something that looks a little more like pain, or like he's going to be sick.
He very, very clearly didn't know that. And equally as clearly wishes he had. He looks away from Shuichi, offering him a sort of non-committal sound at first and a nod before commenting.]
Guess that makes sense, yeah...guess. I was worried for nothing, then. [Nice. Great. How fun.] Thank you for being so understanding, Saihara-chan...I'm really relieved.
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Okay so wait~ You're saying you actually did it with her then? I'm pretty sure that's what you're saying here!
[Let's...let's change the topic. Let's focus on this, on teasing him instead.]
You know, I didn't think you'd be brave enough without at least a couple months of cuddling and kissing under your belt~ I'm so proud of you!
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[I'm betting neither of you got "excited" over cuddling, and that's probably a requirement, right?]
[Why hadn't he fully tested that assumption? Shuichi and Kaede's failure to fill the cuddling square their first night here had proved that arousal needed to be involved, but...had Kokichi really just stopped there? Did he really not test it further? Had he really not attempted to figure out the finer intricacies of the game he'd been so eager to play?]
[Apparently not, because that look says all too clearly that he did something he regrets. Something that he wouldn't have done, had he known about that particular stipulation. Something pretty bad, judging by how ashen Kokichi's face has become.]
[It seems like every time the two of them talk, Kokichi just gives Shuichi at least one new reason to worry about him. Though this meeting is by far the most concerning yet. The boy is an absolute mess and Shuichi can only speculate on the reasons why and how he's come to be in this state.]
[For a brief moment, Shuichi hopes that maybe, just maybe, Kokichi will finally take him up on his offer to talk. That maybe Shuichi will finally have some idea of what's really bothering him...]
[But, of course, he doesn't. Despite the all-too-obvious concern in Shuichi's voice, Kokichi just puts his smiling mask back in place and shifts the conversation away from himself. Of course he does. Why have a serious conversation about feelings when you can make fun of the wimpy detective?]
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Yes, we did.
[Maybe if he just...goes along with the teasing, he can try and steer the conversation back towards Kokichi and whatever problems he's clearly having. Maybe. Hopefully.]
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[He's obviously joking, but the color doesn't return to his face and there's just only a little bit of humor in his voice, but he's trying...]
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N-no, I don't think that's right...
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[100% factual sources that are in no way merely gossip or fiction books.]
"Bros" are supposed to text one another immediately when they finally lose their virginity, so that their bro can congratulate them that night and plan a party for the near future to celebrate it. Usually by going out with their other bros!
[Drinking, dancing, going to strip clubs...that sort of thing!]
Of course I've never had a bro before, so I guess I don't really know what that's like, but if I did I'd totally want a party. Which is why I'm sad you didn't text me! Though I can still throw you one~
[The more he ridiculous he makes this conversation, the more tired the detective will get with it, and then he will want to leave. That's the goal here.]
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[His worry outweighs his exasperation, sorry Kokichi.]
Okay, wait...I'm confused now. Are you disappointed that I didn't throw you a party or that you didn't get the chance to throw me one? [He thought it was the latter but now he's not so sure. Since Apparently...Kokichi was sad that Shuichi didn't text him because HE wants a party? Oh my god he's even harder to keep up with when he's sleep deprived how is this even possible.] Also, when did we become "bros"? I feel like I missed something there...
[That is...not the word he would use to describe his friendship with Kokichi. At all.]
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Aha, both! Then again, I guess it would have been impossible to have a party thrown for me, seeing as we weren't really friends when I lost my virginity.
[From his perspective, anyway. Suddenly he leans forward, only a tiny bit of a wobble as he does so, and puts as much energy as he can muster into an excited reaction.]
And we're not, but that's what I mean! Wouldn't it be cool if we were? Though it's not like you have a bro either, right? So you're missing out on the party! I'd even be willing to keep it low energy and low key for you, since I know you're definitely not the go out and drink type of guy. Maybe just order us a couple escorts for the night and we can stay in instead!
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[You know, Kaito? Purple hair? Wears house slippers all the time? Has a dumb little goatee? Even if he's not here right now, he's still Shuichi's bro. Their brotherly bond transcends universes and also life and death.]
But even if he was, I still wouldn't share what Akamatsu-san and I did, and I wouldn't want a party like that. It just seems a little...disrespectful.
[To Kaede, presumably. Apparently, for as tight a bond as he and Kaito share, Shuichi does not acknowledge the "bros before hoes" clause of the bro code.]
But if you really want a part of your own, then...I guess we could go do something for that. Nothing involving escorts, though.
[He's pretty sure that was supposed to be a joke, but still.]
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[He sits back up, yawning a long moment before continuing. Sorry...he's tired.]
You're celebrating becoming a man! Or...something. Also not here means you don't have a bro, y'know? But I guess it'd be pretty impossible for me to compare to Momota-chan, so I won't bother trying, don't worry.
[He was hoping you wouldn't bring him up too. You're ruining all of his hopes and dreams here, Shuichi. Every time he has one for this conversation, you dash it!]
The escort thing was a lie~ I don't even know where to get one here! Well, that's a lie too, I know a few establishments. Maybe we can find a host club to visit instead~
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You're you and Momota-kun is Momota-kun. It's not that you can't compare to him, rather the bond I have with him and the one I have with you are two completely different things.
[I'm sorry, were you trying to keep this conversation light and silly? Guess that's yet another hope and/or dream dashed because Shuichi has more serious intentions in mind.]
I wouldn't want you to try and be Momota-kun instead of being yourself.
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You make it surprisingly difficult to keep a light mood going, did you know that? [His tone is still light and cheery, not really matching what he's saying at all.]
Self-depreciation is a classic way to lift the mood between two people who are merely friends~ It lets you either commiserate with the person making the comment, or agree with the joke and everyone has a good laugh. I don't think you're supposed to try and correct it like that, Saihara-chan!
[Come on now, just let it slide. That's how it works.]
I wouldn't want to be him anyway, but since you've decided to turn this in a more serious direction instead, you at least have to agree that you'll always be closer with him, right? Because he's got charisma and a magnetic personality, but I'm just tiring and annoying~ That's what I was getting at. In that way, we are comparable, don't you think?
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