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Shuichi "Beta-est of Betas" Saihara ✯ 最原 終一 ([personal profile] diffidentive) wrote2017-11-13 11:58 am
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slieght: in lack of compassion. (I want to die but like. In a festive way)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-26 02:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[He sold his bed for some extra cash, and the white board is going to be used later, for a secret project. And he used that time to beat himself up over this whole mess...]

I. Well. [He holds his breath for a few beats and then lets it out in a little laugh.] Aha...I didn't have enough time to think what I wanted to say through all the way! Maybe I should have waited.

[Lifting a hand, the leader rubs at his eyes a little before bringing it up to remove the communicator cuff from his ear and pocket it. And then he straightens up some, followed by a bow. It's nothing like last time - first of all he's sitting down, so a little different, and second of all it's not nearly as deep either. Though it is still clearly very apologetic in nature.]

Last night...due to some unfortunate glitches in the stations system, I found myself in one of Akamatsu-chan's fantasies. I think that maybe I was having a fantasy of my own and...they mixed, or something? Haha, it was super weird. But...I wanted to apologize for that, because I ended up sleeping with her.

[It's not as collected as his last apology at all, Kokichi having a hard time actually putting his thoughts properly into words...but he's speaking slowly and carefully, as though he's aware of this and trying to correct for it. It's also pretty clear just how nervous he is as well, fumbling somewhat with his explanation that follows.]

I'm...sorry that I did that. That I couldn't....help myself? Stop myself? Ah...I should have been more aware of what I was doing. But because I wasn't, I managed to take her...ah...to sleep with her. Before you had a chance to do so. I. I'm sorry Saihara-chan.
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slieght: in lack of compassion. (I don’t need friends.)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-26 11:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[It takes him a moment to reply to that, brows furrowed like he's clearly processing it. Not because he's too tired to understand, but because...well...]

It may have just been a fantasy, but it still filled a square so it still counted, right? I still stole your first time with her from you...are you seriously not mad over that?

[He sounds incredulous, almost offended but more on Shuichi's behalf. Don't get him wrong, he doesn't want Shuichi to be mad and hate him like he's been scared of this whole time, but...]

Saihara-chan, you aren't going to tell that to every guy who fantasy fucks her, right? Not saying it will definitely happen again, but what if it does? With this glitching, it could...I mean, I don't want you to be mad, but...

[He's worried about you, bro. You need to stand up for yourself? What the fuck Shuichi.]
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[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-27 12:43 am (UTC)(link)
[He looks a little surprised by the "you didn't steal anything from me" comment, because in his mind that definitely implies that they've done it already. Which good for him, and that's a relief, but that relief is short lived.

He couldn't hide the affect that "you only have to be aroused for it to count" has on him even if he tried. Even if he was more awake, and wasn't in the middle of apologizing for something he viewed as a grave mistake. The rest of the color in his face drains as there's a sharp, unpleasant twist in his stomach and his expression darkens some. Not with anger, but with something that looks a little more like pain, or like he's going to be sick.

He very, very clearly didn't know that. And equally as clearly wishes he had. He looks away from Shuichi, offering him a sort of non-committal sound at first and a nod before commenting.]


Guess that makes sense, yeah...guess. I was worried for nothing, then. [Nice. Great. How fun.] Thank you for being so understanding, Saihara-chan...I'm really relieved.
slieght: in lack of compassion. (I love those moments where I have to)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-27 12:43 am (UTC)(link)
[After that, he manages a laugh, turning a smile back towards the detective.]

Okay so wait~ You're saying you actually did it with her then? I'm pretty sure that's what you're saying here!

[Let's...let's change the topic. Let's focus on this, on teasing him instead.]

You know, I didn't think you'd be brave enough without at least a couple months of cuddling and kissing under your belt~ I'm so proud of you!
slieght: saw your tits last night. And booed. (Just so you know the whole club)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-27 03:07 am (UTC)(link)
Man, you should have told me. I'm kind of disappointed! Don't guys like...I don't know, throw parties or something for each other when that happens?

[He's obviously joking, but the color doesn't return to his face and there's just only a little bit of humor in his voice, but he's trying...]
slieght: in lack of compassion. (I got a standing ovation for bringing)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-27 06:19 pm (UTC)(link)
No, I think it really is! I'm sure I've ready plenty of respectable sources on the subject matter.

[100% factual sources that are in no way merely gossip or fiction books.]

"Bros" are supposed to text one another immediately when they finally lose their virginity, so that their bro can congratulate them that night and plan a party for the near future to celebrate it. Usually by going out with their other bros!

[Drinking, dancing, going to strip clubs...that sort of thing!]

Of course I've never had a bro before, so I guess I don't really know what that's like, but if I did I'd totally want a party. Which is why I'm sad you didn't text me! Though I can still throw you one~

[The more he ridiculous he makes this conversation, the more tired the detective will get with it, and then he will want to leave. That's the goal here.]
slieght: in lack of compassion. (We're taking his cast off tonight.)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-27 11:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[Damn. Oh well.]

Aha, both! Then again, I guess it would have been impossible to have a party thrown for me, seeing as we weren't really friends when I lost my virginity.

[From his perspective, anyway. Suddenly he leans forward, only a tiny bit of a wobble as he does so, and puts as much energy as he can muster into an excited reaction.]

And we're not, but that's what I mean! Wouldn't it be cool if we were? Though it's not like you have a bro either, right? So you're missing out on the party! I'd even be willing to keep it low energy and low key for you, since I know you're definitely not the go out and drink type of guy. Maybe just order us a couple escorts for the night and we can stay in instead!
slieght: saw your tits last night. And booed. (Just so you know the whole club)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-28 12:25 am (UTC)(link)
It's not disrespectful.

[He sits back up, yawning a long moment before continuing. Sorry...he's tired.]

You're celebrating becoming a man! Or...something. Also not here means you don't have a bro, y'know? But I guess it'd be pretty impossible for me to compare to Momota-chan, so I won't bother trying, don't worry.

[He was hoping you wouldn't bring him up too. You're ruining all of his hopes and dreams here, Shuichi. Every time he has one for this conversation, you dash it!]

The escort thing was a lie~ I don't even know where to get one here! Well, that's a lie too, I know a few establishments. Maybe we can find a host club to visit instead~
slieght: in lack of compassion. (And by that I mean I told her the)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-28 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
[Kokichi, in turn, is quiet following that, smile falling just a little. But it's only a moment that this lasts before he laughs again.]

You make it surprisingly difficult to keep a light mood going, did you know that? [His tone is still light and cheery, not really matching what he's saying at all.]

Self-depreciation is a classic way to lift the mood between two people who are merely friends~ It lets you either commiserate with the person making the comment, or agree with the joke and everyone has a good laugh. I don't think you're supposed to try and correct it like that, Saihara-chan!

[Come on now, just let it slide. That's how it works.]

I wouldn't want to be him anyway, but since you've decided to turn this in a more serious direction instead, you at least have to agree that you'll always be closer with him, right? Because he's got charisma and a magnetic personality, but I'm just tiring and annoying~ That's what I was getting at. In that way, we are comparable, don't you think?
slieght: in lack of compassion. (We were tigers)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-28 06:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Just as...? [There's a quiet, hopeful tone to his voice as he repeats those two words, probably belaying how he's felt about the two of them this whole time, or confirming what his previous statement implied. The fact that he felt he and Shuichi would probably never get terribly close.

But the detective just implied - no, outright stated - that he could be a best friend too. That he could grow just as close to him as Kaito...and then Shuichi continues, telling him that he thinks he's charismatic too, in his own way! The leader has to glance away, stare at the oh so interesting floor, while he tries to find a way to change the conversation. Or at least steer it away from himself.]


W-well...honestly, I can't see you keeping up with a plastic bag being blown around in the wind, Saihara-chan~ So it's not like I doubted he could be annoying and tiring, or anything!

[He's just moreso, that's all.]
slieght: in lack of compassion. (And by that I mean I told her the)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-29 02:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[He most certainly always thought of Shuichi as his friend, even when it seemed like he didn't. And he valued that friendship a great deal. He still does, despite how careful and cautious he's being about it. It likely means more to him than Shuichi will probably ever know...

It's not really that he doesn't believe the detective though, but more that...he's scared of making a mistake. Out of everyone who hated him by the end of his time in the killing game, it was Shuichi who drew a clear, crisp line between himself and the leader. They were all obvious in how much they didn't like him, but none of the others made it quite as obvious that he'd ruined his chances of being even part of their group and that there'd be no going back like he did.

So now it's hard...despite the fact that Shuichi accepted his apology and obviously doesn't hate him anymore, it's hard to fully trust that just yet. Even now, when it's stated so plainly...there's a part of him that finds it hard to accept that as fact still.

Which is why he smiles and laughs it off again.]


That's true, it does sound like that doesn't it? I guess it's not very fair of me to assume things like that. But it's pretty easy to think that way for me, you know? I'm a liar, after all~ Even when people around me do and say worse things, opinions of me still tend to be lower. And then you have- [Kokichi stops and goes quiet, brows furrowing a little as he gives what he was about to say a little more thought. And then he shakes his head.]

Ah, no, I shouldn't say that. I've already said enough, and it doesn't really matter anyway, right? I just shouldn't assume things like that. So I'm sorry I did, Saihara-chan~

[While it's said with a sort of carefree tone of voice, he does still give him a slight bow in apology.]
slieght: in lack of compassion. (I love those moments where I have to)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-12-29 10:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[He knows! But it still hurt a lot, okay?

Kokichi glances over at the board as well, with a sort of questioning hum.]


Oh! I sold it~ [Said as...cheerily as ever.] I've just been sleeping on the couch anyway, and there wouldn't be a whole lot of room for the dry erase board in here with the bed in here too. So I found some creepy dude who was excited that I'd slept in it and sold it to him. Didn't pay a whole lot, but it was still something.

[And then he looks back to Shuichi, grinning.]

Too bad for him I never even laid down in it~

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