diffidentive: But the first one has to be where you got the flamethrower. (ponder ✯ I’ve got a lot of questions.)
Shuichi "Beta-est of Betas" Saihara ✯ 最原 終一 ([personal profile] diffidentive) wrote2017-11-13 11:58 am
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slieght: So when anyone asked us where Donatello was, we would say, "What? He's gone? Shredder is at it again!" (But we only had three ninja turtles.)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-11-23 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
Maybe I can find your room too~
I'll have to figure out where you guys live at some point.
I could even make it into a game!
It'll be like Russian Roulette, except I probably won't die picking the wrong doors.
Or the right ones!


[No comment on getting shot down. That's just to be expected.]

Oh man, if I do it in the middle of the night, it'll be even more entertaining.

[He's not too far away from his room now, keeping a sort of leisurely pace. Not that he particularly cares for who gets there first, nor is he trying to make Shuichi wait or anything. Just...steeling himself. Making sure everything he wants to say is clear before he gets to the point of actually saying it all...]
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slieght: in lack of compassion. (I got a standing ovation for bringing)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-11-23 12:52 am (UTC)(link)
You mean interrupting people having sex?
Or doing some other weird, kinky thing?
Yeah probably, but that's totally fun in its own way!
You're so cute, Saihara-chan, trying to find such a nice way to put it like that.
☆~~ヾ(>▽<)ノ。・☆
slieght: saw your tits last night. And booed. (Just so you know the whole club)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-11-23 01:14 am (UTC)(link)
Oh my god Saihara-chan did you really just send me that?
I can't breathe!


[He's laughing so hard right now. Thank god he'd just made it to his room, so it's not like there are a ton of people around or anything. Holy shit he is going to die though, that's so good.]

I LOVE whoever invented think texting!
Forget cute, you're downright adorable!


[At...at least, by the time Shuichi gets there, Kokichi will have quieted his laughing. Just a few stray chuckles at him when he walks up.......]
slieght: in lack of compassion. (I got a standing ovation for bringing)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-11-23 01:26 am (UTC)(link)
Oh man, I feel honored right now.
I mean seriously so #blessed that I got to be your first conversation.
Guess you should too, I'm sure any misfire you'd send to Akamatsu-chan would be so much more embarrassing than that.
Don't worry, your secret's safe with me.
Just think of me as a tutorial character or something, they never tell anyone about all the embarrassing mistakes the protag makes while trying to figure things out.
Even the mean ones.
ヾ(*ゝω・*)ノ
slieght: in lack of compassion. (What I lack in compassion I make up for)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-11-23 02:19 am (UTC)(link)
[Smart move, detective. He was hoping he might make the same mistake twice, but isn't disappointed when he doesn't. He shouldn't be laughing at him during this meeting, right? Right. So it's for the better in the end.

He's quick to answer the door once there's a knock, peeking out before opening it all the way to make sure it's actually Shuichi. He's welcomed into the home easily enough, Kokichi stepping out of the way to let him inside. And the inside is...

...very clean. Almost looks like it hasn't really been lived in, aside from a pillow and blanket on the couch and some snack wrappers left on the coffee table in front of it. There's also something folded up sitting on the arm of the couch furthest from the door as well. It's a pretty familiar shade of purple...]


Here, you can just sit or stand wherever. It doesn't matter to me.

[He'll just wait for him to step in so he can close the door.]
slieght: (I'm handcuffed to the toilet. Don't ask.)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-11-23 05:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[He doesn't comment on the fact that he doesn't sit down, slipping past him to address that folded up something. Or well, pick it up anyway, holding it between his arms.]

I woke up with it. You're wondering why it's here, right?

[He comes to stand in front of the detective, fingering the fabric a little and looking down at it.]

I didn't have my usual shirt, and instead was just dressed in my pants and with this around my shoulders. I figured it's because that's what I was technically "wearing" when I died. You know how some stories say your body in the afterlife is exactly how it is the moment you died? Though...

[He's not so sure that's the case anymore. He's not going to get into that just yet however, shaking his head a little and holding the coat out to Shuichi.]

Nevermind, we can talk about that later. I know he'd want you to have it way more than me, so...here. I just feel bad owning it with you here.
slieght: in lack of compassion. (You told me that you were as fast)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-11-23 07:55 pm (UTC)(link)
...you're welcome.

[Don't look like that...not that he doesn't understand why Shuichi has that expression, but he wasn't aiming to hurt the poor detective. But...then again, why wouldn't it? None of his other friends are here. He only has Kaede, so he's probably pretty lonely...]

When...ever you're ready, I wanted to talk to you about a few things too. About stuff from the killing game, and about some things I figured out about this place too.
slieght: (I'm handcuffed to the toilet. Don't ask.)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-11-23 08:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[Oh, now is fine huh? Well...alright. Hesitating, he shakes his head.]

Not just yet. It'd be better to stay standing for this. If you still want to talk afterward then we will.

[He stands up a little straighter, facing the detective, and takes a deep breath...and then bows, just as deeply and apologetically as he can, keeping his eyes on the floor. Okay, just say it how you've been practicing this whole time, Kokichi.]

About the killing game...I want to apologize. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for how I acted and what I did during that. I know that a lot of the things I said were unacceptable, and...killing Iruma-chan, Gonta and Momota-chan is unforgivable. I'm sorry that...my trial had ended up just causing trouble and grief, rather than anything else. I know I wasn't aware of Shirogane and whatever team she'd been apart of at the time, but still. I'm sorry.

I won't apologize for lying and I won't apologize completely for being uncooperative, because I won't apologize for who I am. But I know and understand that there are lies and trouble that I caused that I do need to apologize for. There's so much that I am sorry for, Saihara-chan, that I don't know where to start, and I don't know if you want to hear me list them all. I promise though, I know that those things are there. And if you want, I will apologize for every last one of them. I just don't want to waste your time, especially since I'm sure you don't want me around. Which I understand, too, so please stop being civil on my behalf.

[There's no need to pussy foot around it. No need for Shuichi to be civil to him just because Kaede is there, no need to tolerate him...surely he's growing tired of that, no matter how nice he is. So he may as well let him know that...it's okay to not like him or not want him around. He knows and understands.

Another deep breath, one that shudders a little as it's let out.]


I'm not asking for forgiveness, because I know I don't have the right to be forgiven and I don't deserve it. I won't ask for forgiveness, from you or anyone else. [Meaning he plans on apologizing to them too? If they ever show up...] I just...I just wanted you to know.

[He's not the best at apologies, but he's trying. He's...pretty sure he did that right? He falls completely silent after that, waiting for Shuichi's reply. He doesn't stand up straight again, holding his position, though his hands have started to tremble just a little.

He's sure Shuichi is going to tell him that nothing is okay, and that he should leave the two of them alone...he wouldn't blame him if he did. Or maybe he won't even believe him at all. Wouldn't that be painfully ironic...but he's willing to do whatever it takes to prove his sincerity, so if that ends up being the case then...he'll get down on the floor. He'll get a hot plate and kneel on that. He'll slit his stomach open, if he has to...]
slieght: in lack of compassion. (You told me that you were as fast)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-11-25 08:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[The entire time Shuichi was staring, Kokichi stayed still. Even held his breath, though he's not sure exactly when that started, just that he finally let it out once the detective said something. But...that's not what he was expecting to hear at all. Maybe he would accept his apology, more likely he wouldn't and tell him to leave, but...]

...of course you are. Or maybe you're being civil for Akamatsu-chan's sake, or even your own, but...that's not the point. You don't have to be, no matter why you're doing it.

[Even as he says this, he stays bowed. He wants to look at Shuichi when he talks, but his apology hadn't been accepted nor had the detective told him to stand up yet.]

If you want to be short with me you can be. Or if you just want to ignore me and pretend I don't exist. I get it, it's okay.
slieght: in lack of compassion. (I'm just going to lay in)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-11-25 09:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[A part of him wants to argue further, because maybe he doesn't know that better than Shuichi does himself, but he remembers what it was like before his death. To go from that to someone who apparently isn't just being civil with him is just...uncomfortable. But he holds his tongue, because he doesn't want to argue with him. That's not why he wanted to meet with him...

He stands up as he's told, giving the detective his attention for a few moments before dropping his gaze to the floor. He honestly isn't sure what to expect now, or how to really feel about this. He was fully prepared for rejection, but...no, he's just getting his hopes up, thinking that's not eventually coming, isn't he?

Ugh...uncertainty is usually such a fun thing, but right now he really hates it.]
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slieght: in lack of compassion. (I'm just going to lay in)

[personal profile] slieght 2017-11-25 11:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[It...is a little annoying to hear, but not really because it's cliche. He just takes issue with that whole kind of belief. It's like with Kaede on the first day. "It's coming from a good place" doesn't make it okay, but then Shuichi continues and eases that annoyance a little.

Because, at least, he's not excusing those things blindly the way he had with Kaede.

Kokichi curls his fingers into the hem of his sleeves, looking for something to hold onto as he takes a breath and forces himself to meet Shuichi's gaze again.]


...possible?

[That's the only comment he has. Because...the detective isn't wrong. He doesn't want to be ignored. He doesn't want to be hated, or even disliked beyond what he'd naturally expect for how annoying he knows he is. He wants to be his friend...both of their friend...he's expecting the worst kind of response. That the thing that would make these things possible would be like..."stop lying forever" or something...please don't ask him that, Shuichi. Please don't make this "possible" impossible for him...]
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